Sunday, April 29, 2012

Waiting on the world to change

Patience and perseverance have never been my forte. I’ve always been an impatient little kid, wishing everything to happen with one snap of my fingers. Never grasped the concept of giving time for things to happen, of waiting it out to see what comes along. And my impulsive nature only added fuel to the fire of my edginess. I heard lecture after lecture on my restlessness from people who thought they could help me with some advice, all to no effect. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I was adamant not to change my hapless nature, I just thought I didn’t have any control over it. And yet, for the first time in my almost-a-quarter-of-a-century lifetime, I have surprised myself by actually learning to be calm and patient in a certain situation. Much to my surprise, I have learnt that even I hold the capability of thinking with rationale and serenity, when the need arises. 

And the need right now is for me to calm my racing nerves and keep focused on a dream that I have been working towards all my life. I can finally feel myself getting close to having that dream culminate in reality, IF everything goes as planned. Three more months and hopefully I will achieve the big change in life that I’ve been wishing for. Three months seems too long a duration to wait out right now, but I am determined not to let my patience or focus slip, because I need all my strength to not give up right now. And I won’t. I can and will wait till as long as required and I will bring my dream to reality, no matter what.