Okay, there's something I've been wanting to write about for a long time, errr, someone actually. I never got around to writing about that person because I was a bit apprehensive about how I might be judged, but today I just HAVE to spill my beans, because I cannot keep all these gushing emotions bottled up inside me any longer. I just need to let it all out on paper (in the blogosphere actually) because it is no longer enough to just say these words over and over in my mind anymore: I feel like a teenager again, because I HAVE A CRUSH!!! There, I feel much better now :) Okay, I know I'm married and all, but a harmless crush is nothing that condemnable, right?? Oww come on now, don't be harsh!!
I remember the day I first saw him about a year and a half ago. I remember that first smile he gave me when I was introduced to him; no actually, I remember the twinkle that appeared in his eye when he gave me that smile. I was hooked right then and there. I slowly got to know him better, he swept me off my feet not only with that smile, but the most charismatic personality I'd ever known anyone to have. When he talked, I would listen with rapt attention because THAT is the effect he had on everyone. When he walked into a room, it brightened up immediately and there was not a dull moment while he was around. He was the most eloquent man I had ever met, and I was a sucker for smooth talkers. The days that followed changed me into a completely different person. I felt like a teenager in love for the very first time. I couldn't stop a silly smile from spreading across my face whenever he talked to me. I blushed when someone mentioned his name, and couldn't stop talking about him nonstop to anyone who was willing to listen, including the boy who was then my boyfriend and who is now my Hubby :D
It's been more than a year now, and he still has that same effect on me. Just one glimpse of his face can brighten my day no matter how shitty I'd been feeling before that. Heck, it gives me an adrenaline rush like anything else in the world never has! The twinkle in his eyes when he smiles and the 'Dennis the Menace' hairstyle still gets my heart racing like it has to win the Grand Prix or something. I cherish each and every word he says to me, and I relive them in my mind over and over and over again...yes I know I'm sounding obnoxious at the moment, but bear with me, I'm helpless, that's how I feel about him :S
If only....if only I was a little older, if only I had met him before. The fact that he is twenty-two years older to me (yeah, I forgot to mention that before) and happily married with two beautiful kids is a bit of a problem but he's still the biggest crush I ever had! Yes, Hubby knows and he laughs at me like I'm a crazy person, but the heart wants what it wants, right??
*SIGH* Gosh, he's just breathtaking!!!
Title credit: Jennifer Paige